miss ahma :(

I dreamed of ahma yesterday...

It's been a while since I last dreamed of her.

When I woke up, my pillow was full of tears.

I'm really tired today. Mostly due to lack of sleep...and stress!

I know college life will be tough and competitive.

But you don't need to keep reminding me everyday!

I have been doing my best and now you say that I disappoint you.

It's such a hurtful thing to say. I'm hurt. very much.

And know here you are blaming me for my attitude. Please, you all caused this.

You blame me for not asking you questions, but have u seen the hard work I've done in school? The extra time I take for consultations? I don't like asking you questions it's because you always teach me stuff that's not in my curriculum. You expect me to study more yet I don't have that great amount of free time.

My results are satisfactory yet you expect me to always be one of the top. You once told me that you were proud of me. Yet now you say ur disappointed. I don't know what's true and what's not anymore.

I need a life too. I'm 19, going 20. I have my own mind and I don't need someone to always tell me what to do. I'm not a kid anymore. Life in the Philippines had been much different from now. At least our bond is really close. But now, I don't know.

I know that along the way, I will face setbacks. But let me be the one to handle it. Don't blame me for every decision I make. Some advices will do, I'll appreciate that.

weird

I dunnow what to feel right now.

Going to hostel in a couple of weeks soon..hmm should I be happy?

Thinking of the work loads makes me stressed out already!

Really hope I can achieve my best.

hmm...been thinking these days whether to hint or not. Haven't come to a conclusion yet. So many things to decide. haha :)

Well, I hope you already know...really hope you do.

Work again tmrw..hopefully contract will end next week! earn more and spend more hahaha!

I will miss Beijing

Spent the last 6 days with my relatives in Beijing..

I miss them already :(

Had soooo much fun playing games..shopping..eating..and gathering!

We went to ktv on Friday after dinner. I love it!

It's really a great reunion to sing with them :]

Hope we will be back soon! I wanna do so much things!

Before Beijing, we went to Shanghai for a couple of days for the expo.

It was damn crowded...as in CROWDED.

While queueing, some people are just so uncivilised as to throw everything they eat on the floor! AND they even brought a whole watermelon and cucumber to eat! o.O bilib talaga ako sa kanila. It's so heavy pa.

Shanghai expo was a memorable experience..all the structures are so nice :) but we were only able to visit 6 pavilions in 2 days. LOL.

Manila trip was really really great too! Although I only spent 4 days there, it's worth it.

Now in dilemma...sigh...

CRAP

I've got no voice now :(

When I talk, I sounded like a guy!!!

took half day leave today..cannot tahan anymore!

ytd Vanessa gave me a super duper cute pig! I love it sooo much! :)

Thanks a million!!!

anyways..tmrw's gonna be my last day of work before I embark on a 2 weeks vacation!

Aja Sherry! tmrw must call at least 10!

hopefully my voice will be better...please make it better Lord...

I'm sooo excited to go back and meet my friends already!

miss them sooo much!